I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve been a bit in denial that we\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re moving very, very soon and have been focusing on all of the things I won\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t miss about the Bay Area: the horrid traffic, the hustle bustle of so many people, the cost of living, etc. But with the date of departure creeping closer and closer, it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s getting more personal and real. Today as I left the Rheem School staff end of the year party, I started thinking about the things and people I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll miss. I suddenly realized that the party would likely be one of the last times I would see most of my fantastic colleagues, and it hit me like a truck. I could not, and cannot, stop crying.<\/p>\n
Rheem has been the place where I have found my voice as an educator. I truly could not have asked for a better place to start out. I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve had an amazing principal who turned into a great friend, wonderful mentors and colleagues, supportive parents and excited students. I feel like I came at exactly the right moment to help start the school garden, which has literally blossomed into an engaging outdoor classroom and an integral part of the school. I started to develop my stance on what public education should and shouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t be, and how I can be a part of that. I discovered that I can indeed teach kindergarten, and that I love to play the guitar. I participated in a collaborative teaching staff, one that is built on the basis of mutual respect and openness. And perhaps most importantly, I felt love from a family of educators who beyond doubt find joy in teaching.<\/p>\n
So why leave? I have felt so confident in this move as it has stayed abstract, but today I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m feeling a little grief-stricken. I absolutely know in my heart that this is the right move for so many reasons, and I can look back on the past five years with great clarity to see all of the ways that the Bay Area is not for me (and not the place where Andrew and I want to raise our family). I am absolutely not leaving here with any bitterness; moving to Oakland has changed my life considerably, and for that I am ever grateful.<\/p>\n
But in the end, it is not home.<\/p>\n
And as beautiful as I think Rheem is, I know it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s not my home as a teacher either. I find myself drawn to the experiential side of education, and while the garden has been amazing, I do wish I could be in a place that had outdoor, whole child centered education at its core. I have known for quite some time this is who I am, and I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m excited to see if there is a place that really fits this dream. Also, in all honesty, I do love being a stay-at-home parent, which has its own style of teaching in itself. The path of my job as an educator is being revealed as I walk it, and I know I will arrive in a place that is right for me eventually.<\/p>\n
So in the meantime, I know there are going to be many moments like these as we get closer and closer to the day we move, and I will let them happen as they rise and fall. Today, I feel proud to have been a Rheem Team Roadrunner, and although right now I am feeling immensely sad about leaving the people at Rheem, I also feel carried by their love and will be leaving with a full heart.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve been a bit in denial that we\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re moving very, very soon and have been focusing on all of the things I won\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t miss about the Bay Area: the horrid traffic, the hustle bustle of so many people, the cost of living, etc. But with the date of departure creeping closer and closer, it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s getting … Continue reading Rheem Team<\/span>